Anger is just like Smoking?
I was re-reading part of the book “Hardcore Zen” by Brad Warner today when I stumbled on the following…
Reacting to anger is an addiction, pure and simple, just like smoking Marlboros. Objectively it takes more resources to keep smoking than to stop. Yet giving it up seems much harder than continuing because you’re addicted.
I swear it hit me like a ton of bricks, being a smoker it hit even harder because I could really understand the addiction side of it. And lately, I’ve been having some issues letting go of anger and or irritation, especially at work.
After reading the caption in the book, I now realize what I was doing and why. For so long my reaction to anger or being irritated is that I built a wall and would let things stew throughout the day (they’ve yet to boil over though, I’ve got that part locked down). This in turn cause me to get even more irritated and I’d carry that shit with me all day.
At he end of the day I can put that shit to bed, but the very next day, in the very same place- the shit hit the fan and my cyclic existence of anger and irritation starts all over. I’m going to try and be a bit more aware of it now, knowing it is just an addiction to the habits I’ve already created. The hard part is kicking the habit.
In more way than one…